Did I simply cease to exist since September? Oh no.....that's right....my classes started again and my mind became a frenzy of chaos....never being sure which end was up....and my Mom....what can I say??? The mind can be a fragile thing and little by little it begins to shrink and then, before you know it, everyday things become so hard...and it is so very hard to watch as someone drifts off to somewhere else and leaves you here to watch it happen. I go inside myself but I really dont like what I find there and I try to get back out and it just seems too hard to manage and then, just like the first snow......it comes back....my chi is restored and amazingly it is with a pen on paper....not words but swirls and swirls and dots and curls....until I can breathe again.
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